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[keelywolfe]

Dear god in heaven, I need winter to be over.

My normal winter blues have now hit an epic level of depression and I'm just not sure how much more winter I can stand. (Why the hell I was born in a northern state can only be proof of the universe having a sense of humor.) Thus far today, my daughter and I have only left bed to get food and then we have returned. I've watched two Disney movies and we are now watching some godawful movie about some dog named Kipper. I am going to petition for 'How to Train Your Dragon' next. She's supposed to have preschool today but I'm not sure I can work up the energy to take her.

I don't function well in the winter, I just don't. I do all right at work, actually my store is doing great, but that's about all the energy I can muster. I have about ten loads of laundry that keep LOOKING at me, begging to be washed, but.....eh....here I sit. I just can't do it. My whole house needs cleaning and....here I sit. Sit, sit, sit. Watching Kipper.

It doesn't help that I should be getting my period any day now. Some people get what is quaintly referred to as Premenstrual Syndrome. Me? I get the equivalent of an estrogen nuclear bomb dropped on me every other month or so. Sometimes, it's not too bad and some months, I'm one straight-jacket away from gibbering insanity and like many mental disorders, I never know when I am insane until I look back on it later. (BTW, hormones and I have never gotten along well. Looking back on it, there were times during both my pregnancies that I think I was literally insane and my husband could probably have gotten me that 48 hour involuntary commitment).

So...yeah. I need spring here like, now, I needed it yesterday. I need to stop laying in bed and playing on the internet. Made the mistake of reading a story this morning that was so utterly awesome that in my state is giving me that annoying writerly disorder, OMG,-I can't-write-that-well-and-never-will-why-do-I-even-bother-trying. No writing today then, either. And no games, even my favorite fallback, Left 4 Dead, holds no interest.

I should get up but an unexpected bill just wiped out my bank account until I get paid so it's not like I can go out and do anything. Got the email that my livejournal account expires tomorrow, but I also get paid tomorrow so I'll take care of it then and I really need to just get a permanent account next time they offer them. (It took me three tries to spell 'permanent' and spellcheck couldn't even figure out what I was trying for. Heh.) As often as I have tried to switch to other journals, I never do. I have no trouble with dreamwidth, no complaints, but LJ is a habit that I'm just too lazy to break.

So I should get up. There's stuff that needs done and I need to get up but Spring isn't coming today. Tomorrow isn't looking good, either.

So fuck you, snow. I'm staying in bed where it's warm. How to Train Your Dragon suits me just fine.

Comments

[xianghua.livejournal.com]

Hyacinths are beautiful! I'm sort of limited on indoor plants (thank you so much, Demonspitz- I think she goes on sprees where she wants to pretend to be a vegetarian dog) but if you CAN have them, the smell does so much subtle good stuff for mood that it really is amazing- even if it's not floral, just green-stuff smells, period. (Not that I ahve ever brought the potting soil bag into the house just because it smells like good clean dirt or anything....)

[xianghua.livejournal.com]

PS: I would offer to write bunny-feeding crackfic or pr0n but I have NO idea what to write. I did try to make Chibi Sunstreaker/Sideswipe art but it ended up being zombie!holo!twins, so yeah no. But it will be cute to animate if I ever bother...

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

ROFL! OMG, I would love to see Sunstreaker and Sideswipe as zombie!holos. Three of my favorite things in one package!

[xianghua.livejournal.com]

Re-drawing in Illustrator for ya, then! :P

[xianghua.livejournal.com]

*poke* http://xianghua.livejournal.com/173309.html