FIClet: What It's Not (Connor/Kyle, NC-17)

[keelywolfe]

I've been off doing family related things for the past few days. Rather not get into it just yet and I'll be a year catching up on my friends list. But hey, I have a short bit of porn! There are very few things I can think of quite as...interesting...as trying to secretly write smut around my parents. ;)


Title: What It's Not
by Keelywolfe
Fandom: DC Universe
Pairing: Connor/Kyle, (Green Arrow/Green Lantern)
Rated NC-17



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It wasn't shame that kept him from doing this in his own house. Not really. Only that Ollie sometimes seemed to make him the receptacle of all the integrity, the morals that he occasionally struggled with and Connor didn't really see a reason for that to change. Maybe hotel rooms were a little sordid but it wasn't like there weren't other places to meet.

"Ah…that's…oh."

And it wasn't like Kyle seemed to mind.

The grass under his knees was barely an itch at the back of his mind as Kyle rocked up into him again, the sweaty length of his chest pressed against Connor's back, and Connor bit back another moan, trying to last just a little longer. Kyle dragged a hand low on his belly, teasing him with a touch that wouldn't come and it was so good, enough to make him wriggle back harder into Kyle's lap just to hear his gasp.

The sidewalk was close enough that he could reach out and touch it and it didn't matter that only a fool or a criminal would be walking through the park at this time of night. Even knowing no one could see them, hear them, it was there and a person would have to literally bump into them to find them but he could still feel cold concrete under his fingertips if he wanted, if Kyle would let him fall forward he could rub his palms raw on it.

And maybe he wasn't telling his father about this…this relationship but it wasn't like Ollie needed to know everything about him; it wasn't like Ollie was giving him the minutes of his days.

"God, you feel so good." Hot, wet mouth against his ear and Connor knew from past experience that there wasn't anywhere Kyle wouldn't put that mouth, knew exactly how it felt to be spread wide with his hands tearing at sheets or sod while Kyle licked him open, tongue-deep inside him until Connor couldn't stop begging for it. Until Kyle slicked his own cock and shoved inside him, hard enough to hurt but there wasn't room in this for apologies, just slick heat and sweat, and the sweet, hurt little sounds Kyle made deep in his throat. Like he was now.

And why shouldn't he do this? If there was ever a lesson he had learned from his father, it was that there was nothing wrong with enjoying sex. So long as everyone knew what was going on. So long as no one got hurt.

Because maybe there should be love but –

"Oh! Oh – oh, there, oh!" Connor gasped, dug his short nails into the hand on his hip and rocked back into it, harder, harder…

-- but he was so tired of waiting for it, and Kyle would take whatever Connor would give him, he knew, would lap the crumbs of his affection from Connor's hand and it was pathetic and so wrong, and it was exactly why this was all they could have.

"Connor…" His name, low and broken in his ear, and he could feel Kyle coming. It made him clench hard around the cock deep inside him, like he could pull more from Kyle than he already was, more than he probably should but it wasn't from shame, not at all, just the cheap shine in Kyle's eyes whenever they met, the eagerness in his voice when Connor, always Connor, called him. Maybe they shouldn't be doing this, for reasons that weren't shame, at all, but Connor wasn't sure he knew how to stop it. Wasn't sure he would if he did.

Maybe, just maybe, he could only be his father's son.

-finis-

Comments

[caia-comica.livejournal.com]

Oh WOW. First off, HOT. Second--man. Connor! And with the not-quite-loving Kyle bit...man. Which--I'm used to Connor being the "only sex if he loves the person" guy in more-or-less direct oppostion to his dad, but this, well. *ponders*

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I really enjoyed giving Connor a slightly slanted look. It's easy to see him as the sweet innocent; heck, we get plenty in the comics to prove that. It was interesting to lean in the other direction. :)

[petronelle.livejournal.com]

Oh, ouch. I don't know who's using who, here, but -- oh, boys. Poor crazy boys.

*shakes Connor* You can best your daddy, kiddo. Being an asshole isn't genetic.

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[brownbetty]

Oh, my! Wow, thanks for turning around Connor the blushing virgin. This isn't out of character, and it's really hot. Guh. Very nice.

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

I kind of like to speculate how Connor could be without the ghost of his virginity following him around. *G*

Thank you. :)

[cereta.livejournal.com]

Oh. Oh, my. Hot and hot and just a little bit poignant and oh.

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

[mizzmarvel.livejournal.com]

Ah, man. This sort of breaks my heart for Kyle and Connor. To be another Ollie - what Connor used to want so much, but but now possibly one of the things he wants the least.

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! :)

[rubynye.livejournal.com]

The best fanfic is simultaneously in character and shows us new facets we hadn't thought of.

And that's what this does,

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I like to think of how Connor COULD be. He wants so very much to be like his father and sometimes I wonder how he would be if he had just a little more experience.

[kit-10.livejournal.com]

so-unbelievably-hot and good and nice and scary and poor poor conner and ....he still cant find himself properly can he?


(i will try again when im more coherent.)

just.. thank you.

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! Connor does spend a lot of time trying to figure out who he is, the poor boy.

[sage]

Ooooh, I really enjoyed this--especially the way there's nothing but darkness and texture and movement. I really love the idea of Connor allowing himself a somewhat sordid sex-life *without* a romantic relationship. It's like maybe he wants to understand firsthand whatever it is that Ollie gets out of it, but Kyle's the only one Connor trusts enough to do it with because Kyle won't push him for more.

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Connor is so intent on finding love...I just like to think if there was anyone he could just enjoy sex with, it would be Kyle.

...or Roy, but that would be a different story. ;)

[kickthebeat.livejournal.com]

I feel bad because really, the only Arrow I know well is Roy, and I've read maybe a handful of GL stuff ever, but man. This is hot, and I love thinking about a Connor that could be this ... disconnected isn't really the right word. Separate, maybe, from how someone else feels?

Now I sound like I'm talking out of my ass, I know. Anyway! This is hot, and now I'm going to have to read GA v.2 and all the Kyle stuff I can find on zcult, because I need to see the canon that could inspire such steamy stuff. :D It was brilliant.

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Heh, the only reason I read Green Arrow was because I liked what I saw of Connor in Green Lantern and I ADORE Kyle because he's a big woobie who keeps getting kicked and just wanders back to get hurt a little more. *G*

Anyway, thank you!

[devilc.livejournal.com]

Okay.

Wow.

Just Wow.

Because I can't imagine how to pack so much hot and so much heartbreak into so few words.

[keelywolfe.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!